"Martin: G.A.T.E. Whistleblower on The DoD's Secret Psychic Soldier Program"

4.5.24 | Introducing our NEW 'Written Survivor Testimony Series'

Dear Reader,

Below is an incredibly important, inspiring, and ground-breaking testimony from a survivor and whistleblower who is unable to come on a podcast due to the danger it could potentially bring. We will be referring to guest of honor as ‘Martin’ and at the bottom of this testimony is Martin’s Twitter / ‘X’ account so you can connect (scroll down to the bottom).

Martin has never publicly disclosed any of this information before and worked on this testimony for TWO years before bringing it to you - here in this article.

What an honor we get to read and learn this information from a first-hand account! This testimony blew my mind and I know you will feel the same…

So you guys - without further ado, I introduce to you - my amazing friend: ‘Martin’:

“I am a GATE child who participated in an unacknowledged SAP that’s synonymous with the field of UAP, NHI & Consciousness during childhood and this is a summary of my experiences. I am not bound by an NDA nor am I breaking any oath or laws. For those things to exist, our Government would first have to acknowledge these types of programs & their research on children exist in the first place. As you can see by the latest AARO report and move by the collective DoD establishment, this is something they desperately don’t want to do. If you’re unfamiliar with “GATE”, I am referring to many global programs that operate under the “Gifted & Talented Education” cause within numerous countries public school institutions. My experience is not like the 99% of people who were exposed to a GATE or other related program, I am referring to the side arms within it that are funded by our intelligence institutions domestically.

I am posting this here, through the help of Emma Katherine to have a timestamped summary that shows I shared the things I shared at this moment in time. These are my personal opinions and beliefs which by no way are to be interpreted to imply any connection or endorsement from something larger than myself or in relation to my involvement in what I am describing in this summary. These are my experiences individually and represent no one else’s.

Here's my Preamble:

I’m not trying to make myself a personality in this space. I don’t want attention on myself, only on my message. I do not believe I’m alone in my experiences and exposure, nor do I believe I’m alone in my sentiments & frustration.

I have tried to eliminate information that would put myself, other people, identifiable information such as locations, technical information or any specifics that could jeopardize either personal security or “National Security” at risk. Just because I’m not technically bound to an NDA doesn’t mean that I am by any means sharing this information with any intent of jeopardizing National Security or causing harm. Even despite being an unwilling participant that was forced into Program where I simply didn’t have a choice or a voice as a kid, I am a proud American who loves his country first and foremost. Secondly, I don’t know what the heck I was doing. Was it sensitive? Was it not? I’ve waited for a few years to see if the collective “vibe” in the UFO, UAP, and disclosure movement would even remotely touch a story like mine. At my heart, I sit here each day and feel like it’s more pertinent. I know there are others like me, and I encourage them to please, use your voice. The disclosure community continues to look to figureheads because stories like mine (or yours) demand proof or at minimum, some badge of public “authority” and none of us have 100% proof the way these things are compacted.

I can’t prove in some magical piece of “here’s all the answers” for everything. There are no “Program Leaders” or figureheads. It’s the pinnacle of plausible deniability & the most effective intelligence methods used in the world. It appears to me that the best “assets” are the ones that don’t realize what the heck they were potentially doing in the first place unless they ever took a step back and questioned it, many times 20+ years down the road.

Anyone who’s been exposed to the “inside” knows, that some centralized “head of the snake” doesn’t exist, by design. It frustrates me to see the disclosure community (who we all are waiting for to finally break through a wall to the next connection) fighting tooth and nail over thinking they found a new “lead” in the sanitized version of the CIA reading room or pointing to a figurehead who’s probably playing his part in pushing the lens of the focus from where it should be over way too many years.

The best way to prevent an enemy force from cutting off your “centralized power structure” in the form of the figurative head of the snake, is to not have one in the first place.

What we CAN prove is in volume. Here are my “fragments” of a mosaic, but they are only pieces. If we all open up about our experiences, we might finally put the pieces together. We all know that this conversation on disclosure NEEDS to happen. I feel this from my direct experience in some Program.

I try to retain a shred of optimism for the people who worked with me in childhood and look at them as people just doing their jobs as much as we all do. I imagine many have found themselves in a “no-win” situation where talking is a guaranteed breach of Oath or NDA that has the potential to come back at them & their families like a giant tornado of destruction. We don’t face those same restrictions. There’s power in our stories. Please, share yours.

To the other readers, I only ask that you to keep an open mind & refer back to my summary as time unfolds. For those of you that don’t know me: don’t kill the messenger, just take, or leave the message. I’m not asking you to believe me, nor am I implying any of my opinions or statements as facts. Leave this at the door if you don’t resonate with it. These are my truthful experiences that I recall to the best of my memory, although I don’t claim that every detail is 100% factual. The time I spent in the “Program” has left me with distortions over this timeframe, likely driven by the unknown substances that would be administered to me during some of our “missions” paired with fragmentation driven by dissociation. I made it about 15 years before memories flooded back that were previously hidden behind amnesiac barriers that were installed under hypnosis, and the initial flooding led to a suicide attempt. I am only here to tell my story because the gun I used to put the pain away I felt during these flashbacks misfired, and I truly feel like God has given me a second chance to share my story. While I hope that this opens eyes in the general public of what’s going on behind closed doors, I truly wish for my story to reach people who are struggling like I was and are lost between the cycles of “what happened to me?”. If you’re someone reading this, you’re not alone, and you’re not crazy.

For as much of a paper trail of documents I can provide to prove I was where I was where this research took place, during the correct timeframe this program was funded, working with the correct people who have verifiable ties to covert research & it’s funding, and to the specific defense contractor that was responsible this research, that’s still not a “silver platter” of proof wrapped up in a beautiful bow. I would also be in-fact breaking laws by sharing these documents due to the fact they boldly state: “confidential information protected by federal law” on each. You should understand that many covert programs operate in plain-sight and are padded with plausible deniability by design. They survive on Incredulity, and I think it’s more probable than not that the disclosure community is seeded with misinformation to ensure the spotlight is shown anywhere but on the bullseye.

I worked with people who picked up Starbucks on their way to the facility and talked about what they were doing on the weekends, I wasn’t in some crazy underground base. It was a lot less X-files and a lot more like going to your normal workday.

With that being said, I wholeheartedly express that I have no way to validate if the speculative context I’m sharing is factual or not. I believe counterintelligence methods are used in these programs to identify leaks. I have no idea if I’m just doxxing myself and providing the exact tidbits of weaponized context to trace back to who I am and what program I was in (what story we were given to define what we were doing), but I suppose that’s the risk I’m taking.

What I worked on:

The U.S. Government has been interested in identifying children with unique “psychic” traits for decades. I was one of those kids. My individual participation in one of these “programs” occurred between 2004-2010. Between 2004-2008 this was done while I was in the public school system and assimilated through screening programs such as GATE or other “Gifted and Talented” initiatives. In 2008, I was plucked from the public school system and attended “school” full-time in a locked down, non-descript facility with about 40 other kids that from the outside was serving “Behavioral and Neurodivergent Children”, but on the inside was performing research that involved funding from the DoD and was executed by defense contractor Odyssey Systems. I interfaced with mainly civilian personnel, but oversight of the Program appeared to be in at least some capacity driven out of Fort Detrick, Maryland. I am not making a claim stating that these two items are “facts”, I am only stating what I believe to be true from my individual experience that may very well be completely wrong. I have no idea what the exact subset name of the program I was in was called, but I was exposed to information & methodologies similar to what’s discussed by the Project Pegasus & Project Looking Glass military whistleblowers. However, the execution of how we put this into practice was more aligned with Project Stargate methodologies. I have no idea if there’s some magical piece of physical equipment that many have claimed from the Looking Glass reports, but if there is, I didn’t use it. I was working on this with just consciousness.

To cut to the chase: The dangling of physical craft alone regarding the “Phenomenon” is the equivalent to scooping a cup of water out of the ocean and asking you only to focus on the water that’s in the cup. I believe there to be competing priorities, and I don’t have any insight on who’s who or what’s what. However, at least one component of the phenomenon is actually us, as in humanity, from the “future” or from a parallel timeline next to us or at least that was the context I was told. I didn’t interact with anything in the physical plane, it was all performed out of body. Take the “many worlds theory” in quantum mechanics and visualize it more like “many probabilities that drive outcomes and create timelines for individual experience” that can be seeded, viewed, and rolled back. I was trained how to perform something we called thought projection to serve as a conduit for communication & information exchange from ages 12-14. If you’ve ever read Project Preserve Destiny, imagine accomplishing a similar task but using only consciousness as the medium.

If you’re familiar with the CIA’s and DIA’s declassified research from MK Ultra, SRI, Monroe Institute, Project Stargate, Ingo Swann and others, understand that this type of research didn’t just “end”. When I read the declassified information from these older programs, it appears to me that what’s out in the public domain was research around “what could we do with this”, while my program was a practical application that included mission sets & protocols, or “this is what we do with this”.

I believe there to be many reasons for the secrecy, but the original fear that drove these Program’s into compartmented channels from my understanding is less because the NHI posed an immediate threat, but rather because we’re not the only military aware of the Phenomena & the “technology” associated with it. In the program’s unacknowledged states, we continue to play a dance routine similar to a Mexican standoff between foreign entities from the shadows. There was a fear that if the U.S. openly came out and opened the flood gates of disclosure that we would be openly declaring “look what we have” without fully understanding it and potentially causing a publicly fueled race between foreign enemies who also had their hands on the technology. This carried the potential to become a larger disaster than the nuclear arms race. I understand this to be the initial framework of thinking, which if you could place yourself in the shoes of someone responsible for this decision in the timeframe immediately post-WW2 and the destruction it brought, seems reasonable.

In my personal experience, I feel that what’s more pertinent today rather than the past isn’t just because disclosure in and of itself is “catastrophic”, but the lengths our Government has gone and the laws they have completely broken to keep this research covert will in turn likely be catastrophic news to the typical American. The experimentation more akin to torture on American children is catastrophic in many affects.

I believe the “coverup” is much more complicated than just the collective establishment trying to “hide the truth”, it involves competing priorities within our own Domestic system. Where does the DIA stop, and the NSA begin? The CIA is there, not here, right? Contractor XYZ has WHAT capabilities now? Things are definitely complex.

Here's how it started:

I underwent neuropsychological testing requested by my school district beginning in the 4th grade. This included things such as the Woodcock Test of Achievement and other cognitive exercises that would resemble personality tests. After this happened, I began to work with an individual that would come to my school and ask me questions about my “intuition” after scoring gifted in reading & writing. This testing & interviewing progressed until this individual proposed to the school district & my parents to use him as a psychologist beyond school hours. This started a relationship spanning 4 years, and things get more akin to parapsychology from here up until 2008. Talking about dreams, exploring ESP, discussing interactions with UAP & paranormal activities were normal & encouraged. This was akin to a grooming process where I was consistently reminded that “I had a very unique brain & could see things others could not” or “I’m special” and I found it fascinating as a child for how much interest this psychologist & his team placed on me.

I was incredibly discouraged to ever share this with my parents. Terms such as “this is our special time, and it requires secret keeping” were heavily used in the early stages. I know this might trigger some sexual abuse grooming and that’s because both of these grooming methods are using advanced psychology and its specific effects on a child’s developing brain. It appears that there’s a specific age window where kids like I would be capable of performing these program related tasks were bio-capable. It appears there’s a limited timeframe before puberty where they become non-capable and cut off. In fact, I remember taking puberty blockers given to me through the program’s doctors during this period. On the inside of the program, these techniques progressively grow to install & cultivate these behaviors through modification programming. This continues alongside the family (not just the child) as they advance through progressive steps into deeper levels of the program.

In 2008, I was shifted out of the public school system into the “Program” at the request of this psychologist. The physical facility that hosted it served a dual-purpose. It was a legitimate school that offered psychological & psychiatric support to either struggling or neurodivergent children on floors 2 & 3. There were at least 3 other individuals in this facility who were “exempted” out of the approximately 40 kids in attendance like I was. We each had our own special “guidance counselor” and we did things completely differently. I would attend class like a normal student 3 days a week on floors 2 & 3 and spend 2 days a week working only with my “special team” on floor 1 that was off limits to the majority of the staff & anyone from outside the facility.

There appeared to be a genetic factor at play for people who have a natural aptitude for these abilities beyond just cognitive skills & the age range I provided. I don’t know what it is, but it’s worth mentioning I’m a very rare blood type in the RH- family (negative rhesus factor). I’ve struggled with Lymphoma (which is a blood cancer) in early adulthood and had to face this rarity predicament head on. This may be irrelevant, but it does appear to be a shared thread between many exposed to similar programs that’s worth mentioning.

Please know that I was never given anything like a formal “briefing” or a “debriefing” on what I was doing. I was a child, and things were explained to me how a child would understand them. One of my first exercises with my “special team” was what I now understand as an EEG mapping exercise. I would be hooked up to an EEG cap, be shown my brainwaves on a computer monitor, and then instructed to perform certain tasks. They would give me prompts such as “can you change this line” and then receive feedback like “that was great, can you show me again?”. I was never given instructions on how to change what I was exhibiting, but once I did, they would notice and require me to describe exactly what it was that I was doing or thinking to provide that effect whether it was visualization or something completely different such as shifting my focus. They never gave any instructions on “how” to do any of this, it was always “we can’t tell you how, you need to figure it out your own way”. This happened remedially throughout my time in the program and was almost like a benchmark to gauge progress. This stage seemed much more like them trying to understand something I was exhibiting to better understand how it worked. In fact, most of my time in the program seemed to involve much more curiosity and fascination than anything else. I would have to explain a lot of things that I thought was just my active imagination.

There was a second benchmarking exercise that involved a separate room that was used specifically for this task only. The time I spent in this room was less curious and more serious. The room contained a special monitor that would display a solid black dot in the center of a larger hollow circle. I would be prompted to do certain tasks similar to expanding my focus and concentration and would then review the results afterwards. The graph would display additional lines overlayed on the original dot & circle that were called “amplification” and “phase” similar to X/Y axes that looked like a cone pattern over the original circle. There were other items also referred to as scatter & array on the screen and if I had an answer to give you on what I was doing, I would, but I don’t. The only thing I can provide to conceptualize this is Path Integral Theory in quantum mechanics as I believe they were measuring photonic outputs/thought projection effects externally because the room was absent of light other than the monitor and no other electronics, people, or items were allowed in there with me when the test was active. I recall the sensation of manipulation growing stronger as my time went on in the program that directly correlated to this testing procedure. I was always testing, and this one seemed very important for however they were gauging things as there was immense pressure to always improve. Generally speaking, the beginning of the Program made me feel like a special kid, and towards the end, I was terrified of what they’d potentially do to me if I stopped making progress.

The last screening process involved a physical piece of technology that I still have no frame of reference to understand to this day. It was a highly regulated procedure involving what I could only describe as a crystalized sphere that seemed more alive rather than an inanimate object. I know, it sounds corny & like something from a wizard movie, but I am telling you it was the freakiest experience I’ve ever had in my life. It was approximately 2 feet in diameter and while it had what I perceived to be a defined shell, the inside of it seemed like it had its own light source & I can only best describe it as if you imagined how Jupiter looks with its swirling atmosphere, but it was all white/transparent & crystalized instead. It felt alive and conscious, the inside essence of the sphere would shift as I shifted my conscious engagement with it. It would exhibit changes that seemed like conscious-to-conscious interactions just from moving my eyes. It was brought in with a special team of people that I had never seen previously or after the experience. It was contained in what appeared to be a specific case that was disassembled when I entered the room, and it was sitting on this special pedestal under a type of blanket. After someone removed the blanket, I was asked to look at the object and discuss what I was experiencing in almost a casual fashion, like “what I thought about it?”. I was instructed that I didn’t need to do anything, and that “it chooses who it likes and who it doesn’t”. I never had another interaction with this object or team of people (to my knowledge) during my 2 years there. I was given no further explanation for this.

From here, things progressed to more serious tasks similar but not equal to remote viewing. Instead of seeking a fixed/static target, we would work to build a structure within our subconscious mind that visually can be imagined like a layered grid. Each layer on this grid had specific points that we considered “anchor points”, which were like safe zones or call back points that you had to maintain awareness of during what we considered missions.

There was a lot of focus on engaging the right & left hemispheres of my brain in a specific pattern generally induced through bilateral stimulation, sometimes just with auditory stimulation, sometimes with visual, sometimes with both to get into the states of consciousness where this work was performed. If you’re wondering if it sounded like hemi-sync, it didn’t. The auditory stimulation I used was much more rigid and mechanical sounding, somewhat similar to holding a telephone number key down in varying frequencies.

We each had our own individual “protocol” which was specific and tailored to reach this level of expanded consciousness in the first place. Without going into too much detail, my protocol involved engaging my left hemisphere & right hemisphere in an accelerating crescendo until there was a “gap” in the middle that opened that I would feel/see & figuratively step into. Once I was through this gap, it was similar to moving on both vertical & horizontal axes at the same time, I would either “descend” or “ascend” to a specific point and this “free space” is where we worked on building our layered grids. This work was always done with a leader who had a scripted protocol which was like our SOP. Part of our protocol was developing a communication process to verify if I successfully completed the task given to me or not, and this involved tapping my index finger. We had a whole workflow of questions that we would proceed down if I was having an issue to isolate the problem only using a simple yes/no workflow tree with my index finger to the person that was “outside” and working what we called the “script”.

The missions would start in similar fashions beginning with a week or two of preparation and “structure building”. This structure building would all be done under hypnosis, always with a partner, and typically involving medications that felt most like a sedative. I have no idea what they were, I would just be given something from the nurse’s station that was specific to that floor. We would build/create what we called “markers” above predetermined points called nodes at different locations within the grid structure. An easy mission would involve “seeding” or observing one of these nodes and then returning to my body. The more difficult missions required revisiting these markers to receive new information. I’ll again restate that I had no idea what I was doing, but looking back now it appears almost like 2-way communication with a party that with my best explanation operated outside & around quantum potentials, not in a collapsed state. It’s also very possible that we were seeding potentials that were secured outside of linear time flow, meaning we were seeding & attempting to prepare outcomes for the “future” from our perspective. This always felt like safeguards, for us, by us, in many senses.

There was a risk of entangling with the information depending on the way it was viewed & passed back during thought projection which was equivalent to mission failure. It was explained to me that this had risks involved to the viewer and the easiest way to mess up was to lose your reference of an anchor point and directly observe the information. I don’t know what the risks were other than the fear I had instilled in me for potentially doing this wrong. We always did these exercises with more than one person who served as a teammate. One person would acknowledge the marker (this is tough to explain, it’s like paradoxically observing without observing) what characteristics changed & carry this information back, and the other served as a safety net to pull back to an anchor point if something was going wrong. I can only describe this as like becoming quantumly entangled with it which would somehow taint it. I don’t even know how to describe the information I was seeding or receiving, there was no rhyme or reason to it, I never understood what it was or meant, and nor was I ever allowed to talk about it even with my “teammate” once the mission was finished.

I was told many times that I was a “Psychic Spy” similar to James Bond, and all aspects were made to sound cool and fanatical. I imagine the reason they sound fanatical, is because something fanatical that sounds like the typical “James Bond” story coming from a child is something that can be easily explained away, even if “secretkeeping” was ever broken. The scariest and most traumatic part of my recent memory recall was less of the realization I was doing something much deeper in these sessions, it was the amount of programming and manipulation that went on under hypnosis to install dissociative walls so this information ever was recalled by the brain.

It felt like I spent 40% of my time performing the missions I described above, and 60% of my time undergoing constant manipulation and programming to ensure that I “never spoke”. I could write a book of my experiences and exercises that I went through during childhood as this is just scratching the surface, but in 2010, I was hastily returned to my home school district in an unorganized fashion. I was never given information regarding why, or what this meant for me. It was quite literally just like being told “you’re going back to your home school” and for the last month I was at this facility, I wasn’t asked to go back to that floor and nor did I see the people I was previously working with. I was well aware of the fact that no adult was going to believe a 14-year-old kid, who was technically attending a “special school” if I ever tried to talk about my experiences. During my 2 years, my parents interacted with a representative from the school for a monthly meeting, but I was never allowed to be in the room at the same time as them. I told my parents early on that the person they were meeting with wasn’t my real “counselor” as she was someone that worked on the floor above, and as parents should, they brought it up during one of these meetings and I had the fear of God put into me about ever talking about it again. They gave no reasoning for my departure to my parents, or frankly, my home school district. I just returned back to attend the 9th grade and did everything in my power to forget this ever happened to me. It wasn’t just “me” that was aware things were off, it included my parents. We all just mutually dissociated off these few years in our lives leading up to 2010.

I’m leaving out 2 years’ worth of the recent trauma responses I’ve had to deal with. This felt like PTSD forcing me to “reconcile” with these memories returning more and more progressively, and then genuinely surrendering to the idea that your childhood was absolutely, in fact, not normal, while willing to finally face the implications of what once was so mind-shattering in childhood, once again as an adult. There’s no other way to describe it, it was the most traumatic stuff I ever experienced. These people were in my school system, they were everywhere, I felt helpless. There was no “getting away” other than running away, which I considered many, many times.

Why I am talking:

Did I serve my country? Did I do something with a purpose? Or did I serve as a guinea pig for black budget research? I would love to know, I still don’t to this day. Who do I contact to give my information & documents, what formal channels exist to report something that “doesn’t exist”? AARO won’t admit there’s a UAP presence, why would I expect them to investigate consciousness research on children? Who can I trust? I don’t have a TS/SCI clearance, nor have I worked directly or indirectly for the Federal Government and those are prerequisites to even submit a whistleblower report & documents in the first place. I believe there are hundreds if not thousands of other American children who were exposed to a similar type of program like I was. We don’t hold federal jobs, we weren’t in the military, we don’t hold clearances, and most of the channels set up through the IC IG or AARO require one of these items to even file a report. Where does this leave us?

I don’t believe David Grusch, the recent UAP Whistleblower that has been making waves in Congress is a simple black & white whistleblower, I believe him to be “one of the good guys” who seems in the know by the subtleties of the terminology he uses. I believe he’s attempting to create a pathway for this information to come out without setting off a tripwire of bureaucratic traps installed around these Programs that keep them compartmented. He stood up for the greater good, and I hope other individuals do as well- especially those of us who were childhood participants like myself. We have the flexibility to use our voices without being bound to an NDA, despite however traumatic the experiences were.

If you want to research more of what I’m describing, I recommend getting out of the CIA reading room and go to Sam.gov, follow the money and see where it flows. This is public information and a public tool.

CLICK HERE TO VISIT SAM.GOV

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What do I believe?

The message that I hope others take away from this is that consciousness is where the spotlight needs to be focused on the disclosure movement. I’m not saying dismiss UAP, but I believe by only focusing on one fragment of the phenomenon, we’re falling for the “cup of water in front of the ocean” trick I described earlier. I don’t believe consciousness is local here given my training and experiences; it appears to be extended to us where we experience individualized perception and perspective. I have plenty of posts you can find in my highlight tab that describe how you can visualize this the way I was taught (like viewing 3D reality like a story, where the 5 components of the plot represent linear time flow).

I believe our reality within this 3rd dimension is more akin to a hologram driven by electromagnetism and accessed by consciousness. In this hypothesis, Electromagnetic forces suspend this reality & influence consciousness, but consciousness is not electromagnetic in its essence which is why Quantum Mind theories & EM Consciousness frameworks don’t provide some unified theory alone and in themselves independently to define or measure it. This doesn’t mean this is bad or good, it’s just the nature of reality from my perspective. I am NOT saying we live in a simulation, or am I saying anything that goes against a concept of God, rather what I’m saying embraces God. I’m saying things are very complex.

I believe there to be forms of NHI that operate more as different densities of consciousness, some evolving beyond what psychology considers the default mode network found in our brains & neural activity which forces a perspective of individualization (like we experience). In contrast, you can visualize some forms of NHI like a chorus group who think & act the same way, at the same time, in sync, in a completely different density than what we perceive with our typical 5 senses. While individualized perspectives can still be understood as they’ve likely evolved from them, they operate and experience things as one universal collective. When it comes to physical examples like biologics or craft or where someone raises the question “why would a technologically advanced civilization crash spacecraft here”, I’d answer it’s because they’re not technologically advanced in the way we consider digital technology. They’re spiritually & consciously advanced to the point physical matter is irrelevant. A biological body is more like a body suit and a UAP is like a car to seat their consciousness in as they interact in the 3rd density. If their body dies, or the craft crashes, print another one and reseat your eternal consciousness back into it.

This raises a lot of questions spiritually, but what I know is we were operating and pushing our consciousness outside of the material and physical boundaries and the Program had things organized enough to train participants in how to perform this. It sounds out there, and many may want you to think it’s taboo- but remember, our Government sure seems to think differently and there’s plenty of top notch research out there in the declassified channels even if you don’t believe me. In all honesty, it’s brought my closer to God than ever before by re-affirming we’re spiritual beings having a human experience & we’re not bound here, not vice versa. I find faith from my own perception in that this validates our religions, spirituality & primordial tradition rather than invalidates it- but everyone is entitled to their own perceptions & perspectives. I’m not asking you to use mine or trying to convince you I’m correct, I would rather you not take my words at face value and leave this at the door if you don’t resonate with it or explore it on your own if it does resonate.

I believe some elements or essence’s of NHI have in fact been here longer than us, and that we’re all a part of something much, much larger than we can ever fully understand. I believe we are mutually connected as much as we appear we’re unconnected. There are competing factions and competing motives- but we’re all going through something together on an incomprehensible scale. When I try to intuitively understand what exactly I was doing, it appears more and more that I was viewing or preparing for something ahead of us in a linear time flow perspective. I believe there’s something going on more at the dimensional level rather than a planetary level, and I’m left with this visualization that I can only describe as two outcomes merging into one while simultaneously ascending upwards. To paint a picture of what I’m describing, imagine a triangle and then enlarge the two bottom corner axis points as dots. These dots represent the bubbles (us), like sine & cosine, one timeline in one polarity of duality and one timeline in the opposite polarity of duality. I see these two previous corner points coming together in the middle of the bottom axis. However, while the new merging middle ground on the bottom axis of the triangle, we’re simultaneously merging with the top axis point of the triangle above it (which represents something larger above us). It can be visualized like two timelines merging and then the new merged singularity moving upwards at the same time to a higher dimension. This is just one simple completely stripped-down way to visualize this, it does not even scratch the surface of the complexity of how I’ve tried to put pieces together from my intuition.

In some respects, I am offering a metaphysical framework here on how I view things, which paradoxically describes that the reality around us is like sheet music, while (I) we & our consciousness represent the musician who’s playing the sheet music & the music itself that’s generated simultaneously. I don’t claim to be correct; I’m just sharing my own thoughts.

Simply put, the work I was doing left me with one question: Why the heck are people only focused on physical craft or “technology”? I get that there’s a lot of concern from others trying to reconcile consciousness in relation to the Phenomenon because it requires you to ask some seriously difficult questions about your own existence, let alone “NHI”. But, with all things, the phenomenon itself and the Program’s involved studying it are much more complex than a physical black-budget recovery team just picking up crashed craft.

Thank you for reading, if you’re a childhood program participant as well, you’re not alone. I went through hell & back before I ever thought about talking, but I hope that you share your experiences and story too. I believe it’s time for us to use our voice. If you read this to the end and suspect you are, this is probably bringing up some pretty scary stuff if you haven’t faced it, and I thought I was alone. When I see this new-found traction of people finally questioning the GATE programs, I feel liberated- and I hope & want that to happen for you too. Things are way more connected to weirdness and plausible deniability & the general public feels like it’s finally recognizing that and asking questions, and that’s seriously all it needs to keep the environment open for people like me to finally feel safe enough to put this out there. You’re not alone.

To everyone that’s reading this, please - just keep asking questions! Be open to new information in the disclosure community. No one wants to bring up their eternal (& many times traumatizing) secrets in a disclosure environment where everyone wants to cut everyone else’s head off so their theory is right. I don’t think it’s because many of them are “wrong”, it’s that they need to be connected & viewed from a larger perspective. The more we’re all open to having more people share & bring exposure (this genuinely might be needed for protection in many situations), we might all begin to get a clearer picture. I’m not larping, I’m not making this up, these are my true and overall, pretty challenging experiences that are 100% true to me. I don’t have all the facts right. But, I have my experience, and I know what happened to me and what I was doing. I know you do too.”

-Martin

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THANK YOU, Martin, for sharing your incredible testimony with us. I’m honored to know you and can’t thank you enough for being the warrior you are on the battlefield. You spread so much awareness of this organized child and are a beacon of light in the survivor community. I can’t wait to see what else God has in store for you and know your piece of the puzzle is going to help someone (and many) on the other side of the screen tremendously.

The power of sharing our testimonies cannot be understated. Each one acts as a puzzle piece; a perfect fitting piece that corroborates all the other pieces it fits next to and blends in with.

Martin wasn’t supposed to talk.

We weren’t supposed to hear Martin’s story.

But we did.

What a miracle that we did.

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On behalf of all survivors - THANK YOU for caring about each testimony and each brave warrior who shares their story.

Until next time, Dear Reader…

Love always,

Emma Katherine