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Jessica's avatar

Freaky how much it resonates. I remember my trauma more than my programming. . But as a young teen I remember wanting to make a Halloween outfit of Alice going mad and having killed the mad hatter - wearing her clothes but his hat, vest and covered in blood.

I've never had an alter communicate its name as Alice... but each aspect of the internal programming mentioned here feels extremely familiar.

Adelaide does a BUNCH of Alice in Wonderland themed events

Wondering now if I experienced this. I just thought I would have an alter named Alice if I did.

But I strongly recognise those programmed states within me.

To me in my system, dark Alice, is named Jefferee, and has that program to kill everyone around when feeling hurt.

It's a part of me that I very actively nurture and hold through those big emotions.

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Poppy Joy's avatar

Wow Emma. Explains a lot, must take a deeper look. Afraid of hurting anyone who loves me or comes close to me which is causing further isolation where I feel convinced it’s best for everyone or I may really hurt them.

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