Freaky how much it resonates. I remember my trauma more than my programming. . But as a young teen I remember wanting to make a Halloween outfit of Alice going mad and having killed the mad hatter - wearing her clothes but his hat, vest and covered in blood.
I've never had an alter communicate its name as Alice... but each aspect of the internal programming mentioned here feels extremely familiar.
Adelaide does a BUNCH of Alice in Wonderland themed events
Wondering now if I experienced this. I just thought I would have an alter named Alice if I did.
But I strongly recognise those programmed states within me.
To me in my system, dark Alice, is named Jefferee, and has that program to kill everyone around when feeling hurt.
It's a part of me that I very actively nurture and hold through those big emotions.
Wow Emma. Explains a lot, must take a deeper look. Afraid of hurting anyone who loves me or comes close to me which is causing further isolation where I feel convinced it’s best for everyone or I may really hurt them.
There is a video of The Greenbaum Speech on You Tube. It covers a lot of the basics of programming. It is eye opening, at least for someone like me who has been on the receiving end of mind control hypnosis/programming for most of my life and doesn’t know a thing about it. I am sure there is a lot more to it than just this video, but it would be useful for anyone who doesn’t know anything about programming and wants to find out something out about it. It’s a start at least. I hope this is helpful for someone.
This is something that has intrigued/disturbed me for a while. I would love to hear your (of anyone elses’s thoughts on the link below. I should mention a trigger warning, just in case.
Freaky how much it resonates. I remember my trauma more than my programming. . But as a young teen I remember wanting to make a Halloween outfit of Alice going mad and having killed the mad hatter - wearing her clothes but his hat, vest and covered in blood.
I've never had an alter communicate its name as Alice... but each aspect of the internal programming mentioned here feels extremely familiar.
Adelaide does a BUNCH of Alice in Wonderland themed events
Wondering now if I experienced this. I just thought I would have an alter named Alice if I did.
But I strongly recognise those programmed states within me.
To me in my system, dark Alice, is named Jefferee, and has that program to kill everyone around when feeling hurt.
It's a part of me that I very actively nurture and hold through those big emotions.
Wow Emma. Explains a lot, must take a deeper look. Afraid of hurting anyone who loves me or comes close to me which is causing further isolation where I feel convinced it’s best for everyone or I may really hurt them.
There is a video of The Greenbaum Speech on You Tube. It covers a lot of the basics of programming. It is eye opening, at least for someone like me who has been on the receiving end of mind control hypnosis/programming for most of my life and doesn’t know a thing about it. I am sure there is a lot more to it than just this video, but it would be useful for anyone who doesn’t know anything about programming and wants to find out something out about it. It’s a start at least. I hope this is helpful for someone.
This is something that has intrigued/disturbed me for a while. I would love to hear your (of anyone elses’s thoughts on the link below. I should mention a trigger warning, just in case.
https://youtu.be/mUoj97GZIME?si=tV4NaEKpkr9KGazu